This is truth.
This is truth.
This past week has been a crazy roller coaster of emotions. We’ve had a couple ups and a couple huge gut-wrenching drops. My boys love the thrill of a coaster experience, me not so much… I am comforted by the fact, in spite of all the insanity, the Lord has placed this beautiful child in our lives and He will not leave us alone in this now. Romans 8:28 tells us all things work together for the good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose. She is our baby and we have been called to be her mommy and daddy. As I said in my very first blog post, it does not matter how your baby makes his way into your arms, you love him just as intensely and completely as you do your other children and you will fight to protect him no matter the cost. This is truth.
This does not mean the wait is easy. It definitely does not mean things will happen the way I want them to. On Thursday last week, Josh received a call from the cardiologist saying he needed to speak to us regarding the severity of Susan Elizabeth’s condition. As he is not used to dealing with the kids’ health issues (Josh is just the baby daddy when it comes to medical stuff), he was taken off guard and did not know what to ask or say, understandably. After a very long weekend, we were able to meet with the doctor on Monday. He painted a much grimmer picture of her health and informed us our travel plans needed to be significantly altered to get her home safely. Tuesday we learned the consulate in China will be closing for a week or more during the time we figure we’ll be there. The consulate is the only entity capable of providing a visa for Susan Elizabeth. We also learned the “system” that gives out things like Travel Approval (TA) was closed down last week for upgrades, that “system” was supposed to be up and running on Monday and still is not (as of Tuesday). So we continue to wait patiently (as possible).
In the mean time I want to spend these last few moments as a family of 5 soaking everything in. My friend Jennifer just sent me more pictures from the photo shoot she did with the boys. They are a much needed pick-me-up after all the craziness we’ve had thrown at us! I love how the boys are excited about their sister, but I also know they are nervous about the changes coming our way. We all are a little. I want our children to feel secure in their place in our hearts and not allow the emotional warfare we have been going through to cause any fear in them. Gosh, this has been such a learning experience for us all! We do not know what tomorrow will bring but we do know we will do whatever we can to bring our daughter home safely. It may mean staying in China a little bit longer than initially planned, but that’s ok. We will go to the ends of the earth for you, Baby Girl! For all of our precious kiddos! This is truth.